Sunday, August 29, 2010

Today is going to be a busy day I think.

Matt and I have some house chores to get done. Bathrooms, sweeping, dusting etc. Nothing at all fun.

Hernandez was supposed to come over yesterday evening for tutoring for the promotion boards coming up next month but something came up and he wasn't able to come. So I think he's coming over this afternoon instead. I'm not sure what time so I'm hoping Matt gets up before noon so that he can get all his stuff done. I absolutely hate when he leaves it until the last minute Sunday night. Makes me feel like its not going to get done and then it gets added to my list of things to do during the week. Trust me, I have enough of my own to do.

We're skyping with a few different people today. At least the baby and I are. I'm not sure that Matt will join in. Guess it depends on where he is in his schedule for the day. I really hope my mom is able to get her webcam up and running. She isn't exactly the most techy savvy person you're ever to meet.

Looks really grey and cloudy outside this morning. Not as warm as it has been, still warm and humid but not nearly as much. We'll see how the day unfolds though. I think I remember the news saying that its supposed to be fairly hot today. We did get some rain and thunder yesterday which was nice. Does feel like fall is beginning to move in.

Hoping to buy our tickets home in the next couple days. Looking for some stellar deals!

Friday, August 27, 2010

Stupid Summer, Stupid Heat

These 3 am tummy time sessions that my son is making a habit of are getting a bit out of hand. I'm going to have to figure out a way to curb them.

Have I mentioned lately just how much I absolutely detest living in the south? I find it so utterly difficult to resign myself to the fact that I will mostly be living in some area of the south for the next 15 years while Matt finishes out his Army career. I am simply not bred for humidity. So I've spent the entire summer inside. I actually think I'm more pale now than I ever was during the winter.

I miss my 6 weeks of Washington summer. Where it never really gets above 80 and there is always a steady breeze.

Now we're heading into fall and I really hope its filled with those southern thunder storms. They really are the only thing about living down here that I truly love. Rain at least is a little part of home that I can still enjoy.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Sleeping Routine?

I'm on day 11 of a 14 day stretch and boy am I feeling it.

I've been thinking that its time to start getting a bedtime routine for Logan. He's just about 2 months old now and should start sleeping through the night before too long and he needs to have a routine to help him learn to put himself to sleep. As it is now he will only go down to bed if I rock him and pat his back for close to an hour before I even attempt to put him into his crib.

I'm just not sure what a proper routine should be. He is still at the point where he doesn't need a bath everyday, but it does relax him and help him sleep. Also, whats an appropriate time to put a baby down for bed? He falls asleep around 9 or 10 usually and Matt just puts him in the pack and play. Then he wakes up around midnight for a feeding and then Matt puts him in his crib because thats about the time he goes to bed too. So I guess we'll start putting him in the crib at that 9 time? much to figure out and I have no idea where to begin lol!

Monday, August 23, 2010

Martyr Mommys

Sometimes I feel like I'm the only person in the world who finds motherhood a pain in the ass from time to time. I mean really? I can't be the only person who girs tired. The only person who would love just one day that they don't smell like baby wipes and spit up. I'm so tired of people and their sanctimonious holier-than-thou comments when I mention handing the middle of the night baby duties over to my husband for a day. "mommies don't gets days/nights/time off..." this one does. My husband takes duty at least one weekend night a week and also when he gets home from work during the week so that I can go to bed early and get some sleep before I have to get up at 1am. Yes, I'm exhausted and I'm not going to be any good to my child if I don't get some kind of sleep once in a while. I refuse to play the martyr to my kid just becasue I'm expected to put on the facade of someone who just loves being a mommy sooooo much.

First of all, I'm not a "mommy", I'm a mom. I find that people who refer to themselves as "mommy's" only do it in front of others and its mostly for show. Why are you so worried what other people think of how your going about parenthood? Stop spending your time telling everyone how much of a mommy you are and actually mother your child. I love my son, don't get me wrong, but I'm not that mother who can't bear to be away from him for more than 30 mins. I wouldn't leave my son with someone who I don't feel is capable and competant to care for him while I'm gone. So why should I feel the need to call every 20 minutes just to make sure he's still breathing?

So if you can be a super mom who never sleeps, eats or showers than good for you. But I'm human with all the faults that come with it. So you can blow it out your ass.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

6 weeks

Another week down. I can't believe Logan is 6 weeks old already. It seems like its moved so fast, but also dragged on for months. Guess thats what sheer exhaustion will do for your sense of time management.

Logan is growing mentally and physically leaps and bounds in what seems like everyday. He's reaching for things and beginning to grab them. He can roll over from his stomach to his back but hastn't yet gotten the physics of rolling from his back to his stomach. He's almost there though. Its amazing to watch this little person grow and become aware of things for the first time. He's now enamered with the dog. He actively follows him with his eyes and when the dog comes for a sniff or two, Logan will reach out a hand. I really think they will end up being the best of friends and Matt and I will be pushed to secondary citizens in our own home.

Matt and Logan are building their relationship as well. What started out as both of them unsure about the other, has blossomed into an understanding that they aren't entirely sure how they should be going about this but they're in it together. While Matt started from a completely removed place, I'm so glad that he has taken such a hands on roll as of late with him. Let's be honest, it helps me out a great deal, but it is also giving him the chance to see the amazing things that I see happening everyday with Logan. I really think it will help them to have a stronger bond in the future.

I've started weaning Logan off breast milk and onto formula. He's taking rather well actually. A touch more fussy because he's a bit more gassy while he gets used to it but he's not having any issues digesting or anything so I'm keeping my fringers crossed. I'm noth thrilled about having to take him from nursing so soon at all, but my body seems to be done with it and I can't will it into doing someting it simpy isn't wanting to do anymore. So I'm embracing it and having a drink because now I can!

Matt and I are doing much better as well. Most days lol. We're still adjusting to being new parents and of course with that comes some ups and downs. But since my mom weas here he's really started to pick up a lot of the slack and it makes it so much easier to forgive his little annoyances. Plus I'm getting more sleep and that is always helpful to my mood.

Other than that our life is pretty boring. The few friends I have here, have husbands who were put on orders to Alaska and they will be gone by the holidays. Which suchs. A couple other girls here that I'm friendly with and would like to start a real friendship with seem to be in a hurry to get out of here too so I don't know that its even worth it to pursue it anymore. I'm not the most outgoing of people when around a new crowd so to make a friend is a big accomplishment for me and I hat that people are constantly coming and going. Especially with Matt wanting to change jobs. The Rigger field is so small that every place we go I know someone. Now that he's not going to be doing this anymore and will probably not continue to be Airborne either...who knows if we'll ever see any of these people again. Really just makes me want to pack up and go home. Don't get me wrong, I love being an Army wife. I love the sense of importance it gives Matt and he's really good at it. But the longer I'm away from home, family and friends, especially ince having Logan, the more I think if the economy didn't suck such as it does, I would tell Matt not to re-enlist and we could just go home.

We'll be home for Christmas though. Logan and I will be there a couple weeks early and Matt will follow us for the week or so of Christmas.

For now though....sleep is needed.