My world is falling apart and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I don't know how to even begin to pick up these pieces and put them back together into something else. I'm supposed to be here, doing this.....so how is the Universe sending me back. I'm good at this. I'm not good at whatever that is. I'm numb and going into hiding for a while.

6 Days and Counting...

Christmas is 6 days away and I feel like I have so much to do to prepare for it, but really I'm pretty good to go. Matt's mom is coming down this year. All by herself. Which is wonderful. So I have to start the required cleaning for her visit. Normally I would want the house spic and span before a family visit but honestly, I just don't care that much. If you can't have an unkept house for family, who can you have it for. So I'll do the basics and of course make sure the guest room is comfortable. Other than that, I have a toddler so the house is just never going to be prestine. 

I also feel badly that my house isn't decorated for the holidays. MIL always decorates so nicely for things and all I've got done is a tree and wreath on the door. I started to put some things out but nothing is beyond reach of Logan. Most of my decorations for the holidays are from Gramme and are therefore not at all replaceable and I'm not willing to part with them. So they will stay in storage for the next few years until Logan can be trusted with them. Hopefully she won't hold it against me.

*USMC*EODWIFE

Where did you go? What happened? We're worried sick!! And yes I realize the level of sadness and how way too attached our group is to one another that I've had to resort to sending you an SOS via blog and then posting it on Pinterest :) email me e.e.oneill07@gmail

I'm really looking forward to this weekend. We have no plans. Not a single thing. Even did the grocery shopping already so don't even have to worry about that. We may go do Logan's Christmas card photo shoot tomorrow. But I honestly haven't gotten in touch with our friend who's doing them so I don't know what his plans are.

I ordered the last of Logan's gifts today. Now I need to get the grandparents. But I'll have those sent directly to them so it can wait. I want to gather more pictures to stuff their photo books full of anyway.

Matt went to bed early tonight and he's on Logan patrol in the morning so I'm sitting up here watching Say Yes to the Dress. How awful is that?! LOL. Talk about a guilty pleasure. I was working on Logan's stocking....but that lasted an hour or so and I was done. I'm working on the detailing and I don't absolutely hate it. Its meticulous and time consuming. I feel like I work on something forever and all I have to show for it is some facial features. At least at the end when you sew everything all together you feel accomplished. Even getting to the point of sewing on sequins would excite me. I'll finish this minutia in the morning and hopefully move on to the more fun stuff.

I'm ready for bed. Hopefully Matt doesn't mind me turning on the light and reading a little before I crash out lol